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31 December 2014 @ 11:59 pm

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31 December 2014 @ 11:58 pm
Last year's goals did not happen. I failed. But I'm going to try again. And this time, I'm going to lower the bar a bit.

WRITE OFTEN Try to write at least once per week, and at the very least once per month for ~musemuggers. Try to get your novel done so you can say you did it, and then you get to enter the fun process of editing. You know how much you'll love that. Don't lie. WRITE.

READ MORE BOOKS In 2012 you read 15 books, and in 2013 you read 18 books, so in 2014 try to reach 21 books, and if you manage to do more than that, go buy something from ColdStone.

GO BACK TO SCHOOL I'm not fucking around here. Get your ass into a classroom even if it's part time. You've already done the FAFSA for this year, and the application to the school is almost done. You know you need to finish college, and you want to finish college. So get back there and get started.

LOSE SOME WEIGHT By the end of 2014, weigh less than what you currently weigh now, which is 295 pounds. You can do this by exercising more even if it's just by going for a walk, and you can start substituting your junk food for fruits. You like fruit! Apples, mangos, bananas. You like those things! Just cut back on the sweets.

WORK ON PAYING OFF A CREDIT COMPLETELY Both your credit cards are maxed out, and almost every time you pay the monthly bill, you go and use the credit card. STOP THAT. Focus on one credit card and try real hard to get it paid off.

DO YOUTUBE You'll really enjoy creating the channel. You'll have fun with it. It will be a good, new hobby for you. It's something you've never done before, with the filming and the editing and the writing a script. You bought that awesome book about baking that will help you. Now you just need a camera.

BE CLEANER You know that you're lazy, so you'll go a while without vacuuming or scrubbing or mopping or dusting. Well once a week on a day off, which will probably be Saturdays, it will be cleaning day! Do laundry, clean the bathroom, do the dishes, bathe the dog, vacuum all the rooms, wash blankets, etc. You'll feel better and you know it.
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30 April 2014 @ 11:59 pm

• Read some of Feast For Crows every night, even if it's just one page.

• Since the weather is getting warmer, you can easily go for a walk. Take the dog! Just get more exercise.

• One day of the week, spend an hour or so cleaning. Use apps and check-lists to get chores done.

• Write something once per week. It can be scrap that you delete on your big project. It can be a quick two sentence thing you do for a writing community. Just sit down at least one day of the week and focus on writing.

• Do your college application and do your sister's college application (with her).

• Apply to jobs every day, and call back on jobs you applied to every few days.

• Start seeing your therapist regularly.
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23 April 2014 @ 12:20 am
Okay, I'm going to continue my TV talk, but first... I saw The Grand Budapest Hotel today AND OH MY GOD IT WAS WONDERFUL. I haven't loved a movie so much since...well, I'm not sure. I went back through my scrapbooks, and the first movies I saw that I still love were in 2011, but I can't pick a specific one. Anyway, that's not the point. Budapest just made me fall in love with movies again. It was a real storytelling experienced. It was very stylized and wonderful. Also, it was hilarious. I laughed so much. I cannot wait to be able to watch this movie again.

Bates Motel
I'm actually behind on this show. I have like four episodes to watch in order to catch up. I was intrigued by the first season, though I didn't think it was great. And I feel like this second season has been even more boring. I kind of feel like they're setting stuff up to explode in later episodes, but that's just so obvious. I shouldn't be watching week after week to wait around for them to get around to the good part. They should make the set-up interesting, too.

Honestly I'm only watching this for Gillian Anderson, and I've only seen the first two or three episodes. So far, nothing special, and I probably would have stopped if Gillian didn't have her minor role. It seems basic with crap writing, but maybe it will get interesting. *shrug*

Game of Thrones
Very happy for Joff's death, finally, but I felt like the episode itself wasn't very good. Maybe it's just because I expected it and I was so excited for it, and the scene from the book was burned into my brain. This is why for Dexter and True Blood I didn't read the books. I know the shows are going to be quite different from the books, and if I read the books, I will CONSTANTLY be comparing them. But ASOIAF is right up my alley and I wanted to be a complete part of the living, breathing fandom, if that makes sense. I just finished the fourth book, so once I finish Dance with Dragons, I will be open to all spoilers, and that's what I want. But I also feel like I can't completely enjoy the show. But then again, the show PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF anyway.

First of all, D&D spend way too much time showing naked women. It really bugs me now. I don't know if it gets worse with each season, but nowadays I get really irked. With Daenerys, for example... I felt like Dany's scene at the end of season one was so strong because she was the Dragon, and her nakedness had nothing to do with being sexualized in any way. She had lived through fire, and the dragons had hatched, and she was something to be awestruck by, and it had nothing to do with being naked, but there she was. I don't know. There was just something about that. Throughout the first season, she had been shown naked several times, so this was like the first time she was owning herself and her nakedness. In season two, she wasn't naked at all, but it would have been good, in my opinion, if she had been, just going from the books. When she gets to Qarth, their fashion is to have one breast exposed. After the end of season one, being naked like that and it not being sexual, why couldn't they continue that in Qarth? Then I think in season three, we see Dany naked in an unnecessary bath scene.

It's scenes like that that bother me. It's like D&D look for chances to have a naked women. Like, "We need Daario to come to Dany. She'll be naked!" or "We need Bronn to be waiting for the battle to start. Let's have a naked woman with him!" or "We need Pod to find Bronn. Let's have him be in the brothel with a naked woman!" or "Let's age up Pod for no real reason and have Tyrion decide it's time for Pod to lose his virginity, and this will be done by a bunch of naked women doing weird things with their bodies! FUCK YEAH! Let me get my lotion..." It's so annoying! Why can't they just do the nudity where it's necessary? I mean, fine, some gratuitous nudity is probably to be expected, but D&D really seem to shove it in wherever they see the tiniest bit of room. (*sigh* That's what she said.)

And now with the latest episode, they completely ruined these characters with the Jamie/Cersei scene. I am basically going to ignore the context D&D have put the scene into. It is so wrong. Have they even read the books? For real? For really real? First of all, Jamie wouldn't do that, and Cersei would rip the cock off of any man who would try to do that. Second of all, here is a quote from the scene:
“Hurry,” she was whispering now, “quickly, quickly, now, do it now, do me now. Jaime Jaime Jaime.” Her hands helped guide him. “Yes,” Cersei said as he thrust, “my brother, sweet brother, yes, like that, yes, I have you, you’re home now, you’re home now, you’re home.”

Both parties we're 100% willing to fuck next to their son's corpse. D&D just had to ruin it for REASONS NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.

Mad Men
I don't know if I completely understand what's going on. I think I should have rewatched at least last season. But in all honestly, I don't know they last time I felt like this show was "good". Maybe it was when the season ended with the five partners (Joan standing in the middle) staring out the windows? Was that season five? I don't even remember. I need to do a rewatch. I know season one was amazing, and I continued to like the show for a while. People say it's an amazing show, and it is, but I'd honestly only say the first few seasons. After that I think it got messy because time kept moving on and the characters had to change with the time period, and it just stopped working. Idek.

Orphan Black
Kind of a blah season opener for me, but it did fit in very well with season one. I hate it when a show comes back and feels disjointed from the last season, like you're watching an entirely different show, you know? This could easily have been the next episode in season one. Um...I need 1000% more Alison and Felix. I wish Helena really was dead because I just always found her character annoying, and like a cheap ploy for the writers. Like, "Hey, we need someone to stir up some shit... HELENA!" Idk. I definitely love the show just because it's pure sci-fi and that's pretty unique for a tv show.

This is a brand new show, and the only reason I knew about it was because of my sister. It did look interesting to me, though, and honestly it was not what I was expecting. It definitely reminded me of Sleepy Hollow. More creepy stuff than I was expecting. Um, a couple of jump scares. I know some people are sensitive to that. But I liked it so much I decided to cap it for ~grande_caps. It may be hokey, but I'm excited for this.
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21 April 2014 @ 07:37 pm
Today I uploaded a bunch of new icons and I updated my about me post.

I thought I would talk about all the shows I'm currently watching. There are A LOT. I'll use spoiler cuts.

The Blacklist
I'm up-to-date with this show. Well, there is a new show tonight but I obviously haven't seen that yet. I never watch this show live because I always forget, and it's free on demand with my cable. So anyway... This show is pretty good. It's a crime thriller, and several episodes have really interesting, gross ways to kill people. I find it really interesting and I get SUCH a Hannibal/Clarice vibe from Red and Keen. Like, I'm sure Red is her father, but I still feel like the show is some kind of Hannibal/Clarice fanfic.

Once Upon A Time
OH MY GOD DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM? I actually am excited to watch this show and I'm amazed they were able to get back on track after the train wreck that was season two. So about last night's episode... ALL THE FEELS! REGINA PROTECTING SNOW! GROWTH! EVERYONE EATING AT REGINA'S PLACE! Z5EXTBIJNOKMVTCRX6YVBUINMOPGWBIUPPPP. The only thing that bugged me was freaking EMMA making that snide remark to Regina. Doesn't Emma realize by now that Regina is with the *good team*??? That Regina isn't a conniving, back-stabber??? UUGGHH, I don't hate Emma, but sometimes she really bugs me. I also thought Belle was adorable, running in with, "Look what I found! Look what I found!" Haha, I loved it.

Okay, the episode where they killed Chilton really bothered me. On the whole, I didn't think that episode was great. It was the very first time where the episode ended and I felt like, "...meh." But after thinking about it, I realized the showrunners made Chilton slightly likable. He was kind of comic relief in a way. And you were kind of rooting for him over Hannibal. I realize that Bryan Fuller almost blatantly said that Chilton may have survived. I don't know what to think about that. Because if Chilton comes back, and is still the Chilton we know in Silence of the Lambs, he won't really be the antagonist, will he? We'll kind of be, like, on his side instead on Hannibal's, right? I feel like the whole point of his character is that you just fucking hate him. You want Hannibal to win so he can go and eat Chilton because Chilton is so smarmy and annoying. But in NBC Hannibal's storyline, we have this storyline now that has basically woobified Chilton. So let's say Chilton comes back and he's the one in charge when Hannibal is locked up. We're going to be on Chilton's side through his nasty behavior. We're going to be like, "Hannibal tried to set you up! You almost died! TWICE!" So let's say they don't bring Chilton back. This is the way I think they should go. They bring in a whole new character who they just make us hate from the beginning.

Ugh, I was interrupted so I will continue this later!
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20 April 2014 @ 04:38 pm
Hello all! Today I am looking for book recommendations. I'm actually not looking for a specific kind of book, but actually books that are shorter, quicker reads. I usually post for book recs in bookish, but I figured this is something kind of different, and I could ask my friends list for help.

I've been reading the ASOIAF series for a solid year now, and I've breaked a couple times to read other things. I just started the last book in the series, and I'm looking for some other books I can read simultaneously. Ones that are fun and will keep me entertained, turning the page, and that I'll be able to finish quickly.

Basically the only genre I don't read is romance. My favorites are fantasy and historical fiction, but I also like science fiction and contemporary fiction. If it doesn't fit these genres, and it's something you really like, please recommend it anyway and I'll check it out. :)

Thank you!! ♥
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19 April 2014 @ 02:29 pm
Happy Birthday, absolutelybatty!
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19 April 2014 @ 02:12 pm
Happy Birthday, vintagic!
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18 April 2014 @ 04:52 pm
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16 April 2014 @ 06:10 pm
Guess whaaaaaat?!?!?!!?!

I'm going to see Aladdin on Broadway in August!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA! I AM SO EXCITED YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!! I've been to only a handful of Broadway shows in my life, and the last time I went was in high school. This is the first Disney one I'm seeing and I MIGHT DIE. And I have good seats. Here's the chart (right click and open in new tab to see full size):

We're in the second row of the mezzanine, which is the blue section. I AM SOOO EXCITED OHMAHGERD.
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11 April 2014 @ 04:09 pm
Day 30: a song you would like your loved ones to play at your funeral
Dido - "See The Sun"

Wow, I never picked a Florence song!
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11 April 2014 @ 11:43 am
Okay, a LOT of my friends have done this the past couple of months, so I'm going to snag it and do it for May! :)

The Month In Questions - You pick a day, give me a topic to talk about or a specific question to answer, and on that day I will make a post to answer you. You can pick as many days and give me as many topics/questions as you want, but there can't be more than one per day. Topics can be stuff like, "TALK ABOUT CHEESE!" or "political ideology". Questions can be stuff like, "Who is your favorite Game of Thrones character?" or "How is your relationship with your parents?" You can ask me anything. :)

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10 April 2014 @ 04:09 pm
Day 29: a song that you find incredibly beautiful
Evanescence - "My Immortal"
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09 April 2014 @ 04:08 pm
Day 28: a song you would like people to listen to and think of you
The Head and The Heart - "Lost In My Mind"
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08 April 2014 @ 04:07 pm
Day 27: a song that describes your first kiss
Jay-Z - "Oh My God"
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07 April 2014 @ 09:58 pm
I'm about to do a mini friends cut. It's of journals and communities that haven't updated at all in 2014. If you are still around, please comment here and let me know. Thank you!
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07 April 2014 @ 04:07 pm
Day 26: a song that makes you turn up the volume on your radio
Fun - "We Are Young"
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06 April 2014 @ 04:06 pm
Day 25: a song that's a cover
Mumford and Sons - "The Boxer"
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05 April 2014 @ 04:04 pm
Day 24: a song you hate
Robin Thicke - "Blurred Lines"

Not even gonna post it here.
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